I give up

This part should have been made a while ago, but I didn't know what to say. Tho I can talk about anything and everything, the really troubling things have to whirl around in my head a bit before I talk about them. I need to say that a friend at Poker.com is facing a critical illness and to wish him well. Don't wanna mention names for privacys sake, but just wanna let you know how sorry I am for your situation and that I wish you the very best of luck. From what your wife and daughter say about you, if anyone can beat this you can. I don't believe in prayer, myself, but my parents do, and so I've got them and the church they go to praying for ya.

You're a real stand up guy, one it's easy to like and respect, and you don't deserve this at all. Best of luck, bro. If there's anything I can do.....

Now for the easy part...

I think I'm done with poker. Yes, I've said that before, but every time I've quit, it's been in temper, or "on tilt". This is different. First of all, i start college end of this month, so I won't have time anyway.

I've been on a bad run for probably more than 6 months which has just been TORTUROUS, and haven't really enjoyed the game since I came back 3 months ago. I've been asking myself for a while why I bothered playing when I wasn't having a good time. I still believe I can win at poker, but it's just not worth the frustration and disappointment. And I honestly am starting to believe the bad run wasn't gonna end. Ever.

Not that there's anything wrong with the site. If you want to play online poker, and therapy doesn't solve the problem, then Poker.com is still the best. I've no problem with the site. The reason I've removed the links to the site is so I can keep the blog with out having to look at poker advertisements. (Game's kinda hard for me to walk away from, for some reason.)

I'd suspect I have gambling problems, except I only play poker, and mostly just online. I've never lost any amount of money that was even remotely troublesome to do without, and I willingly step away from the game when something else comes up. (Not a gambling problem, then, a BOREDOM problem. I'll have to work on that.)

I hope (not plan, nothing so definite, I know my lack of will power) to fill the time with exercise, and getting out more. Maybe find a new hobby. I've had the guitar for more than a year now. Maybe it's time.

So, no more poker talk on the site. I think I'll probably use it as a diary and as a way to practice my writing skills. You know, essays, humorous articles, scathing comments about Bush, etc.

Hope you like it!